Ego, Judgment & Boundaries

“You call it enlightenment; we call it temporary.” – Abraham

One of my favourite Abraham-Hicks quotes, if I had to choose. For those who don’t know, Abraham is a collective consciousness of “imaginary” friends received (or channeled) by Esther Hicks since the mid-eighties. I believe in imaginary friends, but in this definition, there’s no room for playing pretend.

Recently I spent an afternoon with a homeopath, who, before ending the session, asked me what my favourite mythical characters are. I was stumped. “Jesus,” I responded, then walked over to the closet filled with my Doreen Virtue books and pulled out Archangels & Ascended Masters. I opened the book and began scanning through it. “Buddha, Quan Yin, Lakshmi.”

No, no, no. He meant mermaids, unicorns and fairies. Oh yeah, I said, I believe in those, too.

“I’m totally a mermaid.”

Even more recently I met a woman named Tammi who told me that she is a dragon in Chinese astrology. Before we started chatting, though, I was miffed about some guy with PTSD projecting his bad energy onto me at the buffet at Lotus Pond. He confused my high-flying energy with feeling hurried, so after fighting the burn I let myself have a little fit in my head about him being wrong.

When I sat down I noticed this woman smoking weed on a bench nearby. It smelled good, and I really wanted to run home and smoke weed. Then Tammi disappeared while I ate my lunch, and returned as I was leaving.

“All finished eating your lunch?” she asked.

“Yep!” I responded. “Hey,” I continued, “was that you smoking weed?”

“Oh, probably,” she answered.

Then we talked about dragons.

“I believe in dragons,” I said.

“Me too,” she said.

“Dragons are misunderstood,” I said.

“I know,” she said.

We introduced ourselves, then Tammi told me that I could find her in Centennial Square and smoke pot with her any day.

I walked away from the interaction with Tammi feeling less misunderstood.

Indigos, if you’re not aware, function optimally with understanding and compassion from our loved ones and peers. Without these qualities (or bhavas), Indigos can bounce between indignation and belligerence, and even violence. Interestingly enough, I’m born on the Capricorn-Aquarius cusp—the most violent cusp of the zodiac year, the Scorpio-Sagittarius cusp being the most volatile. Although I no longer act out violently in my thirties, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have violent thought inclinations.

Let’s start with the concept of ego. I’ve learned from Abraham that ego is the focusing mechanism. In any given moment you have the opportunity to focus positively or negatively. You can feel good, or you can feel (for lack of a better word) bad. Everyone has an ego along with the ability to make choices, even the fairies or nature angels, which would explain their mischievous natures. Apparently these devas, as they are known to the yogis, haunt the dreams of humans who willfully and ignorantly devastate the environment. How awesome is that?

From my understanding, our egos are more naturally positively focused when these bodies expire and our imaginary selves ascend back to the astral plane of existence. However, we still have egos, or, focusing mechanisms and free will. It’s said that benevolent angels don’t have egos, but then that wouldn’t make sense because they’d have to focus on helping us. The documentary Kymatica describes angels and archangels the most satisfactorily for me. Archangels and their subsidiaries the angels exist dimensionally, on higher dimensions than us in both physical and astral realms. Think of me as a journalist patching together information. I don’t personally consider archangels and angels religious, but rather nondenominational and omnipresent. They can help everyone who calls upon them simultaneously. I’m starting to think of the name Archangel Michael, for example, as a code that calls in protection. This code blinks royal blue lights at me. Archangel Raphael, in that vein, a code for healing. Archangel Zadkiel the code for memory; Archangel Uriel the code for communication; Archangel Gabriel the code for communication; Archangel Raguel the code for harmony and the resolution of conflict; Archangel Jophiel the code for beauty and beautification; Archangel Sandalphon the code for peace; Archangel Metatron the code for balance, and so on and so on.

Angels, from my understanding, don’t judge us. I’m currently uneducated about fallen angels, and therefore must decline commenting on that particular subject. Our guardian angels might laugh at us, or ahem, with us, but they love us unconditionally like our inner beings and the angels do. When I mention Source, I’m referring to spirit or what hermeticism would call The All. Admittedly I don’t fully comprehend how the universe or existence works, but I’m sorting my way through it, too.

When talking about judgment, it’s important to note the difference between judgment and discernment. Getting back to the focusing mechanism for a moment (that is, ego) … whether positive or negative, we are always making judgments. That’s what sifting and sorting through the contrast is; we’re identifying our preferences. Our expansion is born out of these preferences. Carl Jung spoke of preferences. In any given moment, we can focus on what we want, or we can focus on what we don’t want. From what we don’t want, we can know what we do want—we can be more discerning. And from the standpoint of creation and your thoughts creating your reality, there you go. Turns out the vast majority of well-intentioned humans are shooting us all in the collective foot. That goes for yours truly—when my j’ego is negatively focused. Judgment says you and what you’re doing is wrong, while discernment focuses on what it wants: usually peace.

Now, let’s now consider authenticity versus being real. Authenticity, according to Abraham, means you at your best, whereas being real means you being you (no facades) at your worst or your best.

And finally let’s discuss the fine line between professionalism and boundaries. Basically I’m wrapping this up on a complicated note. A cliffhanger, if you will.

I’m not entirely sure how it went, but when Wayne Dyer joined Hay House, he said something like: the only rule is there are no rules. Father of Taoism Lao Tzu, in his great masterpiece the Tao Te Ching, said something like: the more rules you make, the more rule breakers you create. Sounds like Aquarius.

Remember here what Yogi Bhajan said: “Piscean values work from the ego, creating boundaries. Aquarian values have no boundaries; they are infinite.”

Within the context of butterfly transformation, imaginal cells contend that the old coexists with the new for a while—but eventually the imaginal cells of change will eat the haphazard caterpillar cells up. Basically, it’s a mine field (or mind field) out there, whichever way you choose to look at it.